I was at Kriplau this past week-end for R&R and thought of you. It was deeply healing after experiencing a huge loss this past summer. Coming up on 2 years alcohol free on November 20th, such a nice way to celebrate that. Thanks for reaffirming my decision to live alcohol-free 2 years ago. I think the hardest part for me is that I was a really fun drunk. People really liked when I drank because I made the night more fun. I had a lot of fun too but often woke at 3am with crushing anxiety about what I did/said and it stayed with me the whole next day. When I remember those moments, I choose over and over again not to drink and try to put aside my insecurity about not being fun anymore. So glad you are here!
First, I am so glad you are here Dana. Second, I am sorry for your loss and third, I am happy that you were able to spend some healing time at Kripalu. That place is just so damn special. I understand your 'fun drunk" description. I too was quite fun, until I wasn't :) - as my husband would say. And I will never forget a girlfriend of mine yelling "but I love drunk Mia"
Though we may be different now and maybe not as "fun' or spontaneous, life is so much easier. God, to think how hard I made it on myself. That middle of the night anxiety and morning feeling of being so tired yet wired. The gross stomach sickness all day. None of that shit is worth being a bit more loud and boisterous. Sending you love xx
I was at Kriplau this past week-end for R&R and thought of you. It was deeply healing after experiencing a huge loss this past summer. Coming up on 2 years alcohol free on November 20th, such a nice way to celebrate that. Thanks for reaffirming my decision to live alcohol-free 2 years ago. I think the hardest part for me is that I was a really fun drunk. People really liked when I drank because I made the night more fun. I had a lot of fun too but often woke at 3am with crushing anxiety about what I did/said and it stayed with me the whole next day. When I remember those moments, I choose over and over again not to drink and try to put aside my insecurity about not being fun anymore. So glad you are here!
First, I am so glad you are here Dana. Second, I am sorry for your loss and third, I am happy that you were able to spend some healing time at Kripalu. That place is just so damn special. I understand your 'fun drunk" description. I too was quite fun, until I wasn't :) - as my husband would say. And I will never forget a girlfriend of mine yelling "but I love drunk Mia"
Though we may be different now and maybe not as "fun' or spontaneous, life is so much easier. God, to think how hard I made it on myself. That middle of the night anxiety and morning feeling of being so tired yet wired. The gross stomach sickness all day. None of that shit is worth being a bit more loud and boisterous. Sending you love xx